You never know how hard it’s going to be until you have to do it that first time. Yesterday evening, I left my little Ronnie at my mom’s house so I could go to work, for the first time in about 12 weeks.
It’s amazing to me how much room that little guy can take up inside me. I feel like he is every part of me.
I talked to my mom about it, she said with the hard time I had at the end of the pregnancy and the rough time during and after delivery, the baby and I have quite the bond, and she could not imagine how tough it was to leave him.
I know he is good hands, after all…he is with my parents…and they raised me after all. I am positive they can handle it.
I knew it was going to be hard to leave him….but I had no idea that it would have me crying for at least half of the 50 mile drive to work. I’m staying with my parents for this rotation, I just don’t think I could stand to be that far from my sweet little guy for that long.
FMLA was such a blessing, I am lucky to have a job that allows me to spend that time with Ronnie, and create that bond with him. I am glad that I was able to take advantage of the time. 12 weeks did not last long at all, I was surprised at how quickly it passed.
It’s a new path, being a working mom, but I know that it will be good for all of us in the long run…I’ll miss my little guy, but I am working for him now. His smiles, half grins, and coos make everything worth while.
So, I will miss him, but in the end I know that having both of his parents can be just as good for him as if I stayed home with him.
Any first time moms out there? Any one gone back to work yet?
The first week is the toughest, it WILL get easier! Hang In there!
Thank you for the kind words of encouragement, I sure need it.